it's ME .. (-__-)

Hate me? Well, I don't care. If you’re talking about me behind my back, that just means my life is obviously more interesting than yours.

I’m not pretty like you, I’m pretty like me. Sometimes I just lay there where I can’t fall back asleep. I just look up at those four walls and wonder about everything that’s happened in my life. Sometimes the memories let me smile, other make my heart hurt. But those nights seem like the only time I can think alone. I spent my entire childhood wishing that I was older. Now I’m older and this shit sucks. I’m just tired. I’m tired of waking up to the same routine everyday, seeing the same people, it’s getting old. I’m tired of waking up alone and cold. Pushing myself to get out of bed. I’m just tired. That’s my excuse. For once, I want to be the girl that at least one guy notices. The girl that is the last thing on his mind when he falls asleep. And the girl that he can’t wait to see. But really what I want most is that one best guy friend that I can go to and talk about anything with and he’d still love me. Sometimes when I get upset, something inside of me shuts down. I feel like I should be crying or screaming or something but I don’t because I’m turned off. I go silent and don’t talk very much, just looking at people. Thinking so much that I could drive myself crazy. It’s the kind of upset that confuses me and makes me want to curl up and sleep it off. I stay fixed like this until the hurt runs away. Sometimes it feels like it’s never going to go. People said I've changed so much. Well, here's the honest truth. I grew up. I stopped letting people push me around all the time. I learned that you can't always be happy. I accepted reality. I only respect people when they earn mine. I don't trust people easily. You don't know me but I know me. I am who I am. I hate guys who cheat on girls, treat girls like a toy, don't respect girls and guys who use girls for their own satisfaction. I don't play, I give my all and I love deeply.

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tp kena tul ama aku. aku rasa laa :(